i cant seem to post the pics. DAMN! nvm! anyway it was Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr-eaaaaat! hehe =) mae and i really enjoyed the concert. good view. good seats. good music. good voice. good company. good ambience. good concert. =) okay we din buy the most ex tickets la but it was gd enuf =) DT in the house! haahha okay honestly im not like his ardent fan or sth. yupyup. No idolatory. hahaha but yeah he's GOOD! good good good! hahaha the concert was just...

sincerely simple and sweet.

he sang all his old songs which mae and i deeply regretted for not practising or Mugging(in yy's lingo) for it! arhhh!! but yeah the highlight obviously was a song tt ALL of us knew. yeah. the ALL constitutes the WHOLE INDOOR STADIUM.. haaha.. 爱，很简单. the way he sang it it was really 很简单. so simple. so sweet. so sincere. =)

i felt like a cok for wanting to go for jay's concert so badly despite noeing tt it'll just b gimmicks-filled. taoze's was gimmicks-free but surprises-loaded! =) the hiphop dance, the chinesedance, the pipa, the red suit, the suspenders, the bowtie or the lok cok but not lok cok outfit. hahaha it was just good!

wad really touched me most was how he appreciates the ppl around him who helped to mk his concert such a success. his fans (not me la.. hahaha im only another person who appreciates his talent and his music=p) , his co-workers, his team and most imptly, his one and only and most impt person..Jesus Christ, His God. =) I was stunned awhile when he praised God and gave a short testimony on stage but it was very heartwarming when he said Jesus Christ and you could still hear cheers. not as loud as when he made everybody so high but yes it was a distinct cheer! =) Praise the Lord and fellow christian soldiers! =)

he said he wun b hafg a concert anytime soon but i noe at the end of his concert i so am gonna go for the next one and im sure it will b as sincere as this=)

A genuine leader protects people when they are tired, and nurtures them by providing training appropriate to their levels of development. If people are given strict training under circumstances that require protection instead, they will go under. And if they are protectively coddled when instead they need guidance, they will stop growing.

-Ikeda Sensei

it suddenly dawned upon me on this topic of leadership since its so hot these days. i still clearly rem the talk we had by mrs cheng for all the leaders of the sch 6yrs back. haha sounds so long ago but yeah tt was when i was damn bloody energetic and the passion i had for the sch was immense! (really okay! hahaha) i always rem wad she said, to b a people's leader or a leader of people. i chose the former. bcuz to me, being a leader means remembering those who helped you be it destructively or constructively. being a LO helped me to reach out to the ppl. ppl tt i'd nv haf interacted w if not for my role during my House term. i like being a LO. i like reaching out to people. i like interacting w ppl. okay dun ask me why am i studying engineering. my hse term was fulfilingly short. i learnt so much and i made many gd frens whom i noe will last me till e day God takes me away. =) thankyou dear frens who stood by me all these while. wad i rem most out of nj is really my hse frens and the chance whereby i got to stand up as a leader.

being a leader you can either insist or you persist. of cuz insisting is bad. you just want things your way but you do it in a dogmatic way. you penetrate it into their thoughts not leaving any leeway for them. but if you persist, its different. you believe in your thoughts but you just hang in there to show you perseverance and that you really have a strong belief which may touch others.

sometimes everybody say feedback feedback but when ppl really do feedback, in this case - destructive, the leaders feel upset. feel that ppl are attacking them. oh come on. tts wad a leader is all abt. u tk everything. be it destructive or constructive bcuz its thru destruction you learn how to re-erect your kingdom and its thru construction you further strengthen your foundation. everything has a reason. you cant please the whole world thats for sure but one thing you can do is you can tell urself to learn sth from the whole issue. its either you pick out something bad out of it - resignation and blame others OR you can stand up strong and admit whr you've went wrong. ppl only like to kb bcuz they see a flaw. or perhaps flawS. once you admit ur flawS, ppl will see ur good. tts how human nature is. when someone admits he/her made a mistake somewhr in his/her policy, the ppl will see him/her as a leader who is brave enuf to admit mistakes and respect will be rebuilt almost instantaneously.

everything has a phase. nobody can b at his/her peak eternally other than God our Almighty who will always be right at the top! once a phase is over, we always learn new things. be it strength, determination or whatsoever. sometimes i believe in what goes around, comes around. sometimes i feel like im watching a paradoxical comedy which i'd like to LAUGH OUT LOUD almost instantaneously everytime i see it unfolding it before me.

nobody can predict tmr tts for sure so who said tmr will still remain lousy? so long as we believe it will b gd we'll mk it gd. theres only how much others can gossip but to even let them start, there sure must have some truth into it b4 they can even start a thread. ever heard of:

无风不起浪？

of cuz some ppl hvn heard of it and hence all these bitterness. hahaha. life's so short to even feel bitter or upset. some ppl just feel that along the way their friends left them to die alone. is that true? i dun believe in that. friends will nv leave you unless they are not worth it cuz no matter what happens, a true friend will never do anything to destroy the friendship. so sometimes we gotta think back issit cuz of our own actions that resulted in them alienating themselves frm us. if tts the case, we haf no one to blame but ourselves. its of cuz hard to see oneself as the perpetuator of the whole SAGA but definitely it takes 2 to clap! so some ppl are just so empty-headed to not realise that TWO is the number and not ONE.

There's no right no wrong in many issues. just a grey area in which everything is all fuzzy wuzzy. so why not just leave things as they are and learn to be a better person. theres no best person but only a better person. theres so much to learn in life. we can never stagnate in some place. what we want in life is to meet ppl who can help to mk us become a better person that more ppl will love and not ppl who mk us into a worse person that more ppl detest. of cuz sometimes we wun realise tt ppl are making us into object of resentment bcuz we think that those ppl are our truest friends and all but we forget to realise that are they really so true to us? in times of difficulty, they disappeared even before we can seek help from them. so much so for senseless advices that were given in the past. its such a joke to see how complicating a person's brain gets.

en route to becoming a WELL-DONE leader, its never easy. who said being a leader was easy anyway? weaklings will complain while strongies will hang in there. so who are the weaklings and who are the strongies? we just gotta wait and see. you need to go thru much more worse situations in life to see through all these. perhaps life has been too easy for some ppl. its time they learn some real stuff. =)

okay enough of such philosophical thoughts. time to be back in my simple life...

been working hard and trying to study hard for the past week. hmm dun seem to work tho. okay first paper will b nxt thurs and last paper will b on 5th! haha =) i'm happie! i cant wait for exams to end cuz tt means IA is ending soon too and tt means i'll haf my life back and tt means i can slackkkkkkkk until fyp starts in july! hoho! okay i may haf a happy holiday in any case! haha =) aft further confirmation den mayb i'll blog abt it. yaypeeeeeeeees!

lookg fwd to the end of exams! bring it on HR and forensicccccccccccccccccccc!! :)

meanwhile, to many frens out there study hard and all e best for all ur exams!

BRO+EP2: !)@*(*(~&*!&*&@*(*@(*#( u better drink the carrot juice if not im gonna kick youuuuuu!!! hoho :P

and i miss KAREN NG JIA XIN alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haven seen her since feb i think or mayb in jan! argh! lookg fwd! :) muacks!

I was doing BSF work.

God is talkg to me.

I am very sure.

I am helpg others out of the same situation. somewhat similar i guess. Jesus is able to appreciate and understand my suffering(s). He is my High Priest, He understands, He intercedes and He delivers me out of temptations. I always thought I am trusting Him le but i guess it just wasn't my maximum amt of trust in some ways. i still wry and contemplate. it was nver a full obedience or trust or faithfulness. I must believe that God's purpose will be fulfilled because of absolute faith in His promises and by His power alone. Only He knows when's the right time to provide me with what He thinks is best for me. Only He has the power to give me what i deserve. Only He knows me and my circumstances. He is understanding and infinitely merciful. Jehovah Jireh! I need strength to overcome whatever circumstances God has placed me in. I cannot concede defeat to satan. No way. God's promises give me power to overcome temptation and sustain me until God sends me help. God's word is powerful because all the faithfulness of God's character is behind His promises. i really lack faith. somewhat. somehow. I must obey in all accordance. I must have faith. I must trust.

God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.

1 Corinthians 10:13

yes. i really believe that temptaion doesnt continue indefinitely so long as i hang in there. im feeling so tired that i cant move on and tt means the end is in sight. It is always darkest just before dawn.

I cant wait for dawn to come. i will and must trust in Him. yes, i can do it. soon all these weariness will fade. i cant wait.