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But seek ye first the kingdom of God,and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Matthew 6:33


especially for my ♥loves :)

Happy 21st Birthday Cenying!!!

i purposely post a blog entry for you okay! haha =)

my beloved PTL, a happy happy happy birthday okay! Enjoy your special day and yes go party since you've oredi ended your papers! i still haf 2more horrible ones to go thru. i really hate level 3 modules. wanna vomit oredi. haiz. shld haf worked harder during e sem. boo. anw yupp happy happy bday!!

this is your very special day when you turn TWENTYONE and yah e numbers just keep escalating in an increasing rate. hahaha.. well, let your hair down (like you dont.. lol) and paint e town red okay! i'll b joining soon! and yes we'll go for our manicure sessions, cycling, shopping, eating and zoo-ing sessions sooooooooooon!

rem something k. I LOVE YOU ALOT! *hugs*

sheng ri kuai le =)
im actually disgusted by e scene of it. haha
perhaps just too numb le ba.
whatever. haha!
tdy is a brand new day. i'm about to leave for e lib to mug. been studying so much these days. studying gets really tiring. sapping up ALL my energy by e time i rush back to watch e 9pm show. even tho my life is so damn bloody mundane and sian, i'm happy w every small thing that makes me happy. i've grown to appreciate all e small things in life and it makes me a happier person.

lookg fwd to life out of hall le. i'm sure it'll be even more enriching and fulfilling cuz i'm sure God has prepared a better road for me. =)
out of a sudden, i realise i'll be moving out of sheares soon. i cant wait for exams to end but that also means that i'm leaving hall. for good.

turtle amongst NOTES. hah

happy turtle on e table =)

and mae had to bathe it due to unforseen circumstances. ahha to commemorate e first bath, i've decided to name her MAE. after her evil godmother. hohoho!! :P

boo... wet turtle..

i got happy mcspicy meal and a beard papa cream puff as a surprise ytd! thanks sister and xiuyi for going to vivo to get food for me! wahaha.. and of cuz ms candy for liaising with them right under my nose!! boooo! haha.. and oso my beloved bffs!! so sweet! hee. i heart my level 6 and huijing!

bingjia for being such a great ptbf. haha you really mean alot to me okay!

hengfai for adding so many points and just being there. 115!!!

viv and xy for being there at all times.

when things go wrong there are always ppl arnd to fix it right. God has His plans laid out. He allows some ppl to make our lives go wrong but that only happens when He has already placed ppl who will make things right in our lives.

He makes us go thru the horrible part of life meeting rotten people so that we'll learn to enjoy love appreciate and treasure the good parts and sweet people. and i really do treasure this period of my life now bcuz i haf so many frens who care! i've exams tt's round e corner its giving me damn alot of stress but i noe with God, my family and you guys i can go thru it safe and sound.

i'm not good now but i'll b better. bcuz of all your care i'll b better. i'm very sure of that.

in life you hafta go down to the down-est to go up. its time to go up and e climb will b tough. with all of you by my side, i'm sure it won't b so tough le. thanks!

你就是我的天使
保护著我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔
飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎黱样
只要有你就会是天堂
像孩子依赖著肩膀
像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖给我力量
像诗人依赖著月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使
你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂

good friends are e sweetest God-sent angels.
thanks for being my angels. e sweetest of all.
for·ev·er (fôr-ěv'ər, fər-) Pronunciation Key
n. A seemingly very long timehttp://dictionary.com

it was bullshit.
a letter to you, shiang*:

hey girl,

i haven been talking to u for ages le. well i still remember how we became friends and then good friends and then best of friends. =) remember the big field that separates the primary sch apart from the secondary school block? remember how we used to play catching and all sorts of funny games before school started for us at 1.10pm? how we always say if we step on shit we'll get bad luck for the whole day. how we always avoid dirt, mud and shit cause we don't want our pretty white shoes to be soiled. and we will play with the older jiejies from our school bus. always wishing that we'll be in upper primary soon soon soon cause they seem so mature. so cool! and then we spent 1yr as just pure bus mates and classmates. nothing more. just a simple friend. and then we moved on to primary 2. we were still in the same class. we were even sitting in the same group and that's how we started talking. we moved to the new campus. no more big field for us to run about. no more eerie corner for us to peer into and imagine that there were ghosts back there! no more shit or dirt for us to step upon and no more afternoon sessions.

e new campus is beautiful. so much prettier looking than the old one. 1.5yrs in the old campus at such a young age don't bring back much memories other than the fact that we always use our class blackboard chalks to "clean" our white shoes. how we always place our waterbottles behind e classroom. how ms loo used to tell us interesting stories which always kept us quiet. how we used to haf 15minutes recess and played circle circle and zero point and 5stones. how excited we were when mrs eng tells us her old school days in sc. how ms tan bee po gave us stickers when we could answer her riddles and questions! 5small stickers = 1 big sticker. 10big stickers = 1 surprise! haha..

and p2 we had mrs amy lee. wun forget how she threw my exercise bk out of e classroom~ hahaha.. how we always talk and get caught. hahaha.. how we always say we'll be lawyers when we grow up! buying 2 hses next to each other and promise to be neighbours! our beautiful houses (i'm not sure if both still there mah. hahaha..) i remember they were identical. both in light yellow. just pretty looking. =) and we made a promise to each other that we'll be best friends forever.

p3-p6 flew past quickly. we went on our separate ways in a way bcuz we were in diff class. u had ur new set of frens, i had my new set of frens too. but we still kept the promise there. at times i feel that ur new frens were more significant than i am to you. it made me sad for a long time. however we still talk, less frequent but we still do. p6 i made e stupidest mistake. we quarrelled. really big quarrel. i'm not sure if you still remember but i clearly do. i didn't like joan. haha :P oops. those were the days huh. i even felt tt she was poisoning you and taking you away from me! booo! i complained, i argued and we ended up sad and angry. you are always the nice and giving one. knowing my lousy temper and prided ego you gave in to me. you wrote a letter. a letter to patch things up. to make our promise come true. and i did e silliest and most hurting thing to you. i didn't even bother reading the letter. i made sure u saw me holding onto the letter and dropping it into the dustbin in front of the dental clinic. and i walked away haughtily. what a bitch i was! i've never manage to apologize to you w regards to that matter. now i wanna take this chance to say i'm sorry. sorry for hurting you at that time. i never had e courage to anyway and it happened so long ago oredi but yup i still remember. i'm glad we patched up soon aft that. =)

sec1 we were in the same class again! we hung out qt alot but you again being e silly and naive you. always getting used by her. haiz. despite me telling you so many times shes evil you still dun believe me. so many ppl told you le, still don't believe!! haiyo. but am glad you realise it sometime later. =) we always went kap to play. hahahaha.. come to think of it, we were like dumbos la. hahahaha! and all e diao-ings and all by the sec2 girls. -_- and e highlight of e yr was always talent time! we were e class that got e most comments from e sec2 girls but who cares? thanks for being there even tho mrs chua kept picking on me (OBVIOUSLY she doesnt like me and pipi lala.. hahaha) and of cuz who can forget e classic moment of shujun flinging e humongous centipede from her bag thinking that its fake and its a prank. mr ang was so manly huh. ahaha!

sec2 we went diff class again. this time i got used to the fact that we haf diff sets of frens but we're still best of friends. sec2 was a tough and tiring year. so much happened but i'm glad you were there. even tho u don't really noe wad happened you still nv failed to find out and gave me strength =) sometimes i do wonder if we're really still best frens. sounds dumb right? but its just tt besties do everything tog. they eat they slp they talk they practically stick w each other. ours is different. ours is unique. ours is an atypical relationship. our hearts are linked to each other and e emotional support matters more than the physical presence.

sec3-4 we were in e same class! we were so happy =) we had alot of fun. 3/3 was a superb class! i'm glad i chose that combi and got in there. finally sec4 we get to choose who we sit with. i wont forget how we got into shit w ms kim for talking non-stop cuz i cudnt hear properly since i had wax in my ears. i won't forget how you re-explained everything e teachers said for me again bcuz i cudnt hear clearly. i won't forget how you accompanied me to e doc to clear my wax. i won't forget how much fun we had as partners in class! remember those good times and it really makes me feel happy despite my present on-off-down days. haha..

you wanted to go HC and i wanted to go VJ. we promised each other we will kp in contact. we never said it out loud but we noe we're still best of friends. however, in the end none of us went to the JCs we DREAMED of. hahaha you did well but you stayed on in SA while i went back to NJ. you had your fun time in SA as a councillor while i had mine in NJ as a house rep. things were different since we were in different school. its not just a different class kinda thing. its really a different sch thingy oredi. we barely met each other due to our busy schedules. but i do appreciate the rare but treasurable smses you sent me time to time. =) and that was when i realise we are really best of friends. every successful meet up we have endless topics to talk about. you never fail to bring a smile on my face. you never made me feel lousy or stupid. i knew you are and will always be mybest of friend because of all my friends throughout these years the one my parents remembers most is still shiangmin. =) she never fails to ask about you and how are you doing. and our hearts are always connected no matter what. and tts wad tt matters most. =)

sometimes i wish i noe more abt your life. sometimes i wish we can talk more frequently and more often. sometimes i wish i can receive more smses from you too! but i just wanna say, for being there when i needed you, for making me smile when i'm down, for all e fun and sad times we had, for all e memories you gave me, for all e crap and stupid things we did, for all every every everything, thankyou =)

you're someone who really matters to me and i noe i matter to you too! even tho u've oredi found ur special someone i believe i'm still special to you! hahaha.. a different kind of special right? =) you better say yes! if not i go ur hse box u! ahhahaha.. well, i'm glad you're oso dying in chem eng w me even tho u're in ntu. hohoho!! :P you noe since young alot of ppl asked me before HUH you and shiangmin are best friends? you sure? you two are so different. I always tellthem proudly and confidently "yes. shiang is my best friend. true and forever"

so many yrs have went by, its our 14th year of friendship already! hahaha =) how time flies huh. still rem how we celebrated our decade old friendship. hahaha 4yrs haf passed by since then u noe! hahaha.. we're old le. i remember how we say we'll screen each other's bf, how we will bring our kids to meet each other during festive seasons so that they'll b frens too, how we'll meet up for our taitai tea sessions ( i bet we'll b slogging away.... OH WELL. ahaha) and e list goes on. and we'll watch our little kim geks grow into young fine kim geks (like us now! hahahaha..) 金玉满堂。

Sincerity.Courage.Generosity.Service

all these small little things may seem so far away now but these are the dreams that anchored me down throughout all these years.

its the belief we haf in each other and the link that remains unbreakable.

and that's what i call best friends forever.

i love you girl.

*hugs*

love,
lydia
i've a fren who's feeling down lately. well perhaps 2 frens. due to same things. somewhat similar la. but anyway i hope they'll feel happier soon and just to let both of u noe i'm always here if u all nid a listening ear or just support or just tok cok sing song haf fun! =)

i really hate HEAT MASS TRANSFER. wad e hell laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

yaozong! i replied ur email le! hahaha

hmm tink im abit crazy le. as in mentally unsound. hoho!
some lines from an email i've received on guys:

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!

hmmm. somewhat theres some truth in those lines above.
nobody's perfect.
i've known that fact since long ago.
when i pass a judgement its not that i expect e person to haf zero flaw or to b a 100% saint. nope.its just tt e person has diff values frm me. hey c'mon! all of us were brought up in diff environments and naturally diff values were inculcated into us. of cuz many mainstream values were inculcated in but of cuz some went abit way off along e way. even if i make a judgement knowing that im in no position its just MY personal opinion. i'll emphasize again. its MY PERSONAL OPINION. so it doesnt mean that ALL of you out there who hears my opinions MUST agree with me. im just making my opinion known cuz im not a freaking hypocrite even tho i msut admit i'm one at times. so please stop telling me "nobody's perfect" blah blah blah. i know la. its not like im stupid lo. hah!

thanks huihan for the doughnut and cheekysis for being there all e time and i haven pay u peachtart money! hahaha thanks hj and cy for being there and sorry to mk u both wry and oso mae for her grapes last night and xiuyi for tking time off to tok. yup.
its so tiring. its so tough. to be misunderstood. to be maligned. to be backstabbed.
you won't noe how it feels unless you're going thru what i'm going thru.
don't tell me what's best. i don't need you to tell me what's best for me. i know you meant well but i'm sorry, at this moment i can't absorb that fact in.
my brains isn't empty. even if it is, it is half-filled.
its very selfish.
really.
i'm just an unjustified being.
am i really that lousy?
i guess so.
to have my supposed gd friends backstabbing me.
to find out more each day.
to feel more and more numb and jaded to the people around me.
to a point that i don't even feel like telling them what i'm feeling anymore.
so at least i wouldn't have to hear things that i don't want to hear.
i don't need someone to tell me what to do.
i just need someone to listen to me.
is just all about listening.
that difficult?
don't always say i'm thinking too much.
it just injects bitterness in me.
don't always say i shouldn't generalize.
it just injects aloofness in me.
i'm not making much sense but i really just damn sick and tired of all these things.
really very sick and tired.
damn it.
i want to not think abt everything or anything.
i want to not give a damn.
but yes. i can only say cuz i can't not think. i can't not give a damn.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
so what if i'm wrong?
so what if i'm behaving damn childishly?
so what if i'm demanding?
so what if i have high expectations?
so what if i am everything of what others say?
so long as you believe in me and that's what should be e case.
obviously you don't. fuck.
i don't want to blame myself or even say i'm at fault. it wouldn't change anything.
i don't want you to even think i'm trying to emotionally blackmail you again.
i don't even want to think that you've already fucking hell moved on.


nothing is pure black or white. everything is in shades of grey.
you're enjoying yourself while i'm wallowing in self pity.
honestly, i'm fucking hell jealous.
i'm damn jealous.
jealous that you're happy now.
jealous that you can not care.
jealous that you can move on.
jealous that you are no longer affected.
jealous that you're back on track.


why you can do it and yet i can't?


rhetorical question.


and that's why i love to sleep. at least i don't have to face anything or anyone.
just myself.
just myself.


i thank God for being there for me.
for helping me.
for carrying me thru.
for making my days better.
for healing my broken spirit.
thankyou for making e rain stop and letting me enjoy e warmth of e sunshine.

just came back from senior's farewell and that marks the end of an academic year in hall.
it makes me think back wad haf i been thru in hall for e past 2 yrs. i'm officially not a shearite once this acad yr ends on 30th Apr for me. i haf another 7days b4 my matric card expires for me to move out. haha. perhaps just a recap on wad ive done for e past 2yrs since im too lazy to even study aft studying in e aftnoon. 19days to exams. bleh.


0506
ERC - PR cell
Sheares Production - Ticketing
Table Tennis - TM
SWOC – Secretary

ERC
i only joined 4 things last yr and of which i joined 2 halfway. haha erc was really a breeze until open hse came. i knew like nobody in erc. hahahahha! yah weird huh? but yah i really dunno many ppl. whole yr did nth other den 1/2 jc visits for me and den banner painting until wanna die den open hse all e way for 2 days.. and den it ended. honesty not much memories there.

Sheares Production
hmm joined this halfway too but really really really enjoyed myself =) thanks to zibin, meiqiang, zhen hong, tiansheng and of cuz huijing! it wasnt just an all work comm but a fun and interactive comm. initially knew nobody except huijing and zibin (not personally) but slowly got to noe mq, zh and ts! and in fact i tink this is one comm tt i'll nv forget and will really miss aft i leave sheares. haha we're all still in sheares for this yr, mayb we shld tk a photo! 0607 photo! haha =) i'm lookg fwd to thurs gathering! sadly zh cant join us. oh well. haha

SP ticketing 0506 - Tian Sheng, Zibin, Zhen Hong
Me, Huijing, Meiqiang

Table Tennis

This is e first time i was actually part of a sports team. hahaha! yeah i really enjoyed being the TM of tabletennis man. =) initially, i was qt apprehensive taking up this role when yingying e capt approached me. however, felt tt i shld just help her out since she was my ogl in fwc 05 and shes a really nice senior and theres yiling in e team too! =) hahaha i really really really enjoyed talking to the team members and oso joining in with their trainings of which i ended up smacking air instead of balls. hahaha! picking balls and getting drinks for them is something i'm willing to do for them. ihg was early for us and it was really qt sad that it ended right at e start of e yr becuz thruout the dec hols tabletennis was my only hall commitment. =) wadever it is i really love every single paddler of 0506~ :D

Table Tennis 0506
So San, Ying Ying, Grace, Yiling
Gladys, Sharon, Me, Yien Ling and Seok Kheng

0607
SWOC – Secretary
ERC – Chairperson
SECC – OGL
DnD – Pageant

SWOC
Joined halfway. From vday onwards. Haha vday was busy busy busy. Only had 1hr of slp between e 2days but I enjoyed it =) w my lousy flower wrapping skills I was stuck with just cutting and doing ribbons which I soon got e hang of it and very much enjoy =) hahaha! Happily cutting ribbons and making them into pretty ones is really an achievement k! after which it was holidays! 3months of holidays in hall. It was major canvassing canvassing and canvassing. Tiring it may be but it was great fun! From flag canvassing to food canvassing. From UBI industrial estate to duno which ulu pok industrial estate. Walked thru dunno how many industrial estates. I guess its like my whole life’s worth of experience thru industrial estates. Could memorise all e beneficiaries and why and what is Rag & Flag and also what was SWOC all about. Hahaha… Experiences which I’ll never forget. And then it was meetings aft meetings. Day in day out facing the same few people. Hahaha! Sleep oso can dream of them arhh. Haha it was really fun. All e recees, suppers, dinners, lunches, bus rides, train rides, impromptu shoppings, world cup screenings, meetings, canvassing, maggi-cooking, swoc0607 etc etc etc. even tho I ended up at the hosp for 3days haha it was still worth it. Really worth it. If given a chance to relive 0506 again I would join swoc right frm e start. E best comm. I’ve joined in 0506 – 0607. Realised we nv had a full main comm. Pic and e nicest ones we ever had were e ones taken during SNDCC. Hahaha…

SWOC girls – Yingeng, me, Karen, Yoyo, Jeannie

SWOC 0607
Winson, Darius, Xuan Jie, Dominic
Me, Yoyo, Yingeng, Karen, Jeannie

ERC
Stepping up as chairperson for erc was indeed a daunting task and a rollercoaster ride for me. Taking up e post was a pretty rash decision I must admit. Along e way I regretted but then at the end of it all, I really really am glad I took it up. It was a tough and trying year. I really thank Kenneth for stepping up as vice and stood by me relentlessly. He made things so much bearable for me. Thank you Kenneth even tho I dun tink u’ll ever read this! Haha.. my main comm. many of them stepping up without taking points. Daniel one of the pillars of my main comm.. thankyou! Really. For stepping up as treasurer without knowing what’s in store for you and after which taking on dual roles as e marketing ic and started frm scratch. Thank you thank you thank you! Woon rocks my world =) Jeannie for stepping up as secretary and helping me despite not taking points too =) Being busy w SP things I thank you for helping out all e way till the end of open house! Benedick for helping out as PR ic and getting into abit of shit towards the end. Hoho but yeah thanks! =) Darius for helpg out as prog ic. Thanks. From JC visits to Video Filming to Open House, everything went by smoothly with a few hiccups here and there. One of the best comms I’ve ever worked in and I really take pride in chairing this comm.. a lot a lot a lot =) thank you ERC-ians for giving me this chance to chair this comm., to exp an exp I’d nv haf, to work with all of you and of cuz to enjoy every single moment of being in this comm. together with the rest of you =) *one comm. One erc!*

ERC 0607
Not e whole comm. But e only one with e most number of ppl. Ahaha!

SECC
It was a short short short camp. I didn’t do much as a councillor. Haha. Oops. Well. Sorry xtina~ heh. But I sure did enjoy myself during e camp. Playing arnd and toking so much crap and just basically enjoying it. =) got to noe more ppl thru this camp and yes it was really a great superlisheares experience! I’m super sorry to my og since I was always mia-ing. Heh. But yeah it was really great fun noeing all of u!

Incredibly Incredibles =)

DnD
Hahaha… it was really great honour to rep blk b in this yr’s pageant. Well, it was indeed stressful right frm e start. Its like everyone’s expectations and all. But I really wanna thank every single beeker for their countless support and encouragement. I wanna thank my sister for always telling me I can do it I can do it I can do it! Hahaha =) I did it! I wanna thank my level 6 short wingers for everything. Really. Frm clothes to photoshoots to videoshoot to bash to DnD. Wouldn’t haf reached so far without all of you! =) also wana thank all my frens who helped me thru this. =) my dear lup, my cheekysister and many many others! and of cuz my wonderful partner – ahtiong! Hahahaha!! Yeah.we’ve walked thru everything and brought back honour and glory to blk b!! =) u wun read this either. Lol~

Block B – Beekers!!!

2yrs. 365 x 2 = 730days. Not considered long not considered short but sufficiently significant to take up a huge part of my brain. Haha. So many things happened. So many. To say I’m over it, nah. What a lousy liar I am. Hahaha! But in some ways I’m glad I didn’t apply for hall stay le. I’m moving home for good! I’m sure it’ll b weird and requires a lot of adjustment and all but I’m looking forward to it. I need to move out to move on. Haha! Sounds weird but its true =) well, guess after two years I’m not e Lydia who entered sheares le. Walking out as someone who has a diff mindset, diff mentality and diff thoughts of life. Perhaps not e innocent (HEY! I was innocent okay. Back then la. Oh well. Everyone was innocent once. Haha.. believe me!), nice(err.. not exactly tt nice either. Heh) or even the old cheery me. Everyone changes, its only when frens do take d effort to change in sync or even accept the changes to keep frenships going. Karen said something today “best frens are forever” I believe so too. But its tt true? I love you shiang bestie =) But I guess along e way my another best fren left me. He walked out for a better life. A better life of his own. Was it for selfish gains? I noe not of. I do not want to noe anymore either. I believe I’ll b happier in e future. A diff kind of happy but still happy. If I say I’ve moved on now, I’ll be bullshitting. If I say I dun care, I’ll be lying. If I say I dun feel sad, I’m assuming all you ppl out there are idiots. Haha. But yes. So what if im sad? Its just those moments when u feel how can things turn out this way. How can things change so much within a short span of time. How can I just fade out from your life like that. How can you just say everything has ended for you and embark on your new phase of life. I wudnt want you to be sad or feeling lousy, I very much want you to feel happy but it just sucks to know that you’ve moved on so quickly. Like as though I’ve never existed. Like as if the 1.5yrs nv meant anything to you. Like as though I nv left anything in ur life. Perhaps I really nv existed or left anything significant in ur life but you did to me. And since you’ve decided to walk away, nothing can hold you back or stop you. I’m still coming to terms with it and I believe I won’t disappoint you this time. Dec, jan, feb, march could have been spent happily with each other’s company, frenship and all but we decided to waste it away. e gaps will never be filled anymore. Its just like a jigsaw puzzle always with a missing piece. Paths that once crossed each other will now uncross itself. As days go by, the pain and hurt reduces but numbness increases. Guess once time dilutes everything, I’d haf moved on le. Of cuz moving on is e best choice but its e toughest choice. To let go and move on is really tiring and tough. Bcuz im gonna let go of wadever that remains and it really means a lot to me. It does not mean as equally lot to you but it really means A LOT to me. I’m not making you guilty. PLEASE stop thinking that way. Please. I really beg you to not think that way at this point of time le.

Along e way we got closer to a point that you were really e closest fren I’ve ever had but along e way we parted ways. And that’s life. Am I right to say that?

Lets keep all external factors out. Lets not allow anyone else to add their comments or give their 2cents worth of advices. Lets not be bothered by anything else. Lets not think about each other’s changes. Lets not think of the past. Lets not care about all that has happened. Lets not worry about being a burden to each other. Lets not assume what each other is thinking. Lets not be strangers. Let us be happy with each other. Be there for each other. Help each other. Can we? But I know the ans le.

And tmr will b a better day again. I tell myself that every night I believe in that.
Stronger mightier happier and that’s wad you wanted me to be.

i hate it when my thing is coming soon. cuz it means my mood swings and i cant control it. somehow. no matter how hard i try to it just fails. hoho. oh well. not a gd excuse i noe. but im trying.

i hate it when my thing is coming soon. i start falling and sinking.

boo.

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lyd*
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