a letter to you, shiang*:
hey girl,
i haven been talking to u for ages le. well i still remember how we became friends and then good friends and then best of friends. =) remember the big field that separates the primary sch apart from the secondary school block? remember how we used to play catching and all sorts of funny games before school started for us at 1.10pm? how we always say if we step on shit we'll get bad luck for the whole day. how we always avoid dirt, mud and shit cause we don't want our pretty white shoes to be soiled. and we will play with the older jiejies from our school bus. always wishing that we'll be in upper primary soon soon soon cause they seem so mature. so cool! and then we spent 1yr as just pure bus mates and classmates. nothing more. just a simple friend. and then we moved on to primary 2. we were still in the same class. we were even sitting in the same group and that's how we started talking. we moved to the new campus. no more big field for us to run about. no more eerie corner for us to peer into and imagine that there were ghosts back there! no more shit or dirt for us to step upon and no more afternoon sessions.
e new campus is beautiful. so much prettier looking than the old one. 1.5yrs in the old campus at such a young age don't bring back much memories other than the fact that we always use our class blackboard chalks to "clean" our white shoes. how we always place our waterbottles behind e classroom. how ms loo used to tell us interesting stories which always kept us quiet. how we used to haf 15minutes recess and played circle circle and zero point and 5stones. how excited we were when mrs eng tells us her old school days in sc. how ms tan bee po gave us stickers when we could answer her riddles and questions! 5small stickers = 1 big sticker. 10big stickers = 1 surprise! haha..
and p2 we had mrs amy lee. wun forget how she threw my exercise bk out of e classroom~ hahaha.. how we always talk and get caught. hahaha.. how we always say we'll be lawyers when we grow up! buying 2 hses next to each other and promise to be neighbours! our beautiful houses (i'm not sure if both still there mah. hahaha..) i remember they were identical. both in light yellow. just pretty looking. =) and we made a promise to each other that we'll be best friends forever.
p3-p6 flew past quickly. we went on our separate ways in a way bcuz we were in diff class. u had ur new set of frens, i had my new set of frens too. but we still kept the promise there. at times i feel that ur new frens were more significant than i am to you. it made me sad for a long time. however we still talk, less frequent but we still do. p6 i made e stupidest mistake. we quarrelled. really big quarrel. i'm not sure if you still remember but i clearly do. i didn't like joan. haha :P oops. those were the days huh. i even felt tt she was poisoning you and taking you away from me! booo! i complained, i argued and we ended up sad and angry. you are always the nice and giving one. knowing my lousy temper and prided ego you gave in to me. you wrote a letter. a letter to patch things up. to make our promise come true. and i did e silliest and most hurting thing to you. i didn't even bother reading the letter. i made sure u saw me holding onto the letter and dropping it into the dustbin in front of the dental clinic. and i walked away haughtily. what a bitch i was! i've never manage to apologize to you w regards to that matter. now i wanna take this chance to say i'm sorry. sorry for hurting you at that time. i never had e courage to anyway and it happened so long ago oredi but yup i still remember. i'm glad we patched up soon aft that. =)
sec1 we were in the same class again! we hung out qt alot but you again being e silly and naive you. always getting used by her. haiz. despite me telling you so many times shes evil you still dun believe me. so many ppl told you le, still don't believe!! haiyo. but am glad you realise it sometime later. =) we always went kap to play. hahahaha.. come to think of it, we were like dumbos la. hahahaha! and all e diao-ings and all by the sec2 girls. -_- and e highlight of e yr was always talent time! we were e class that got e most comments from e sec2 girls but who cares? thanks for being there even tho mrs chua kept picking on me (OBVIOUSLY she doesnt like me and pipi lala.. hahaha) and of cuz who can forget e classic moment of shujun flinging e humongous centipede from her bag thinking that its fake and its a prank. mr ang was so manly huh. ahaha!
sec2 we went diff class again. this time i got used to the fact that we haf diff sets of frens but we're still best of friends. sec2 was a tough and tiring year. so much happened but i'm glad you were there. even tho u don't really noe wad happened you still nv failed to find out and gave me strength =) sometimes i do wonder if we're really still best frens. sounds dumb right? but its just tt besties do everything tog. they eat they slp they talk they practically stick w each other. ours is different. ours is unique. ours is an atypical relationship. our hearts are linked to each other and e emotional support matters more than the physical presence.
sec3-4 we were in e same class! we were so happy =) we had alot of fun. 3/3 was a superb class! i'm glad i chose that combi and got in there. finally sec4 we get to choose who we sit with. i wont forget how we got into shit w ms kim for talking non-stop cuz i cudnt hear properly since i had wax in my ears. i won't forget how you re-explained everything e teachers said for me again bcuz i cudnt hear clearly. i won't forget how you accompanied me to e doc to clear my wax. i won't forget how much fun we had as partners in class! remember those good times and it really makes me feel happy despite my present on-off-down days. haha..
you wanted to go HC and i wanted to go VJ. we promised each other we will kp in contact. we never said it out loud but we noe we're still best of friends. however, in the end none of us went to the JCs we DREAMED of. hahaha you did well but you stayed on in SA while i went back to NJ. you had your fun time in SA as a councillor while i had mine in NJ as a house rep. things were different since we were in different school. its not just a different class kinda thing. its really a different sch thingy oredi. we barely met each other due to our busy schedules. but i do appreciate the rare but treasurable smses you sent me time to time. =) and that was when i realise we are really best of friends. every successful meet up we have endless topics to talk about. you never fail to bring a smile on my face. you never made me feel lousy or stupid. i knew you are and will always be mybest of friend because of all my friends throughout these years the one my parents remembers most is still shiangmin. =) she never fails to ask about you and how are you doing. and our hearts are always connected no matter what. and tts wad tt matters most. =)
sometimes i wish i noe more abt your life. sometimes i wish we can talk more frequently and more often. sometimes i wish i can receive more smses from you too! but i just wanna say, for being there when i needed you, for making me smile when i'm down, for all e fun and sad times we had, for all e memories you gave me, for all e crap and stupid things we did, for all every every everything, thankyou =)
you're someone who really matters to me and i noe i matter to you too! even tho u've oredi found ur special someone i believe i'm still special to you! hahaha.. a different kind of special right? =) you better say yes! if not i go ur hse box u! ahhahaha.. well, i'm glad you're oso dying in chem eng w me even tho u're in ntu. hohoho!! :P you noe since young alot of ppl asked me before HUH you and shiangmin are best friends? you sure? you two are so different. I always tellthem proudly and confidently "yes. shiang is my best friend. true and forever"
so many yrs have went by, its our 14th year of friendship already! hahaha =) how time flies huh. still rem how we celebrated our decade old friendship. hahaha 4yrs haf passed by since then u noe! hahaha.. we're old le. i remember how we say we'll screen each other's bf, how we will bring our kids to meet each other during festive seasons so that they'll b frens too, how we'll meet up for our taitai tea sessions ( i bet we'll b slogging away.... OH WELL. ahaha) and e list goes on. and we'll watch our little kim geks grow into young fine kim geks (like us now! hahahaha..) 金玉满堂。
Sincerity.Courage.Generosity.Serviceall these small little things may seem so far away now but these are the dreams that anchored me down throughout all these years.
its the belief we haf in each other and the link that remains unbreakable.
and that's what i call
best friends forever.
i love you girl.
*hugs*
love,
lydia
