its going to be the last day of the yr soon. i realised i typed sth wrongly in e previous entry. they asked wads e least fav moment in 2006 i actually thot they meant fav moment. hahahaa was blind. din c properly. and of cuz swoc was the fav moment of 2006 for me. TYPO~ haha.
i just saw some of the house reps photos. reminded me of the gd old days back in nj. when nth seemed to matter other den play play play. fun fun fun. rubbish rubbish rubbish. frens frens frens. studies studies studies. old frens always make life so much sweeter and tolerable. they dun pick on ur faults, they tolerate them but yet they still tell you abt them. they dun make you feel horrible but definitely happy. they dun make you feel that they will leave you bcuz you noe e frenship is always kept in e heart. they dun make you feel that there's no tmr but instead look fwd to the future w more hope and faith. they dun make you feel sad bcuz theres no such word in their dictionary. they dun make you feel happier bcuz u're oredi at ur happiest. they dun make you want to feel strong bcuz they are always there for you. they dun make you feel tired bcuz they always keep you going. the list goes on and on. but who says gd frens aint equally gd? im glad i met a few and its not quantity tt matters, its quality.
i don't need the best material kind of fren. i just simply need a true fren. and thanks to those who noe who u are =)
reflections always make us realise where we've gone wrong and where we've gone right. its always at the end of the yr when we realise all our regrets. why izzit that we cant put things right at that very moment? why izzit that sometimes we have to live w regrets into the nxt yr? the list goes on. i cant answer it myself either and i dun plan to. i just noe i cant let erc down. i cant let blk b down in pageant. i cant let my gd frenz down aft this whole time. i cant and i won't. i won't let tt happen. not anymore. haha.
i've changed alot. i just hope its for the good. being more indifferent and nonchalant makes me happier in some ways. of cuz some things still hurt and it always will. but as long as im happy, who cares? selfish and self-centered? perhaps. growing up is always difficult. but one day we'll always look back with a smile and say "at least i've walked through it" and the day will come. not now. sometime later. =)
